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Hello, I'm Selena Dunn and this is a poem I wrote about depression, or rather my own

Forever Lost

The world isn't always the nicest
And the sun isn't always the brightest
But even when it feels out of place
Keep a smile plastered on your face

He may be gone forever
But you two where never going to be together
So wipe away all of your tears
Get out of your bed and face your fears

You may be fooling everyone else
But you can't fool yourself
You're not happy you're just sad
Forever lost and feeling bad

You write so someone gets a happy ending
You can't face reality so you start pretending
You just long for your memory to be ersaed
It's getting to stop the pain

You're heart has been broken but you tell no one
You think of his voice and the heartbreak is gone
But then the recognition hits home
You will be forever alone

So infront of the cupboard you will stand
With the box of sleeping pills in your hand
You want to take the whole lot and disappear
But dying is one of your greatest fears

Determined not to take the cowards' way out
You try to pull yourself out
Of the bottemless pit of oppression
Caused by your long term depression

Though your chest is still sinking below the ground
And with a new hammer your heart gets a pound
You smile away to everyone
And pretend that you are having fun

Your tears are kept to yourself
Though you need it you're afraid to ask for help
So you stare out the window and into the rain
Wishing away your terrible pain

Now some boy has made you smile
You haven't had a real one in a while
Slowly you start to fall in love
But of course into an unrequited one

You're afraid to tell him the truth
You're afraid he actually hates you
But you try pull yourself out of the hole
But again you lose your grip and fall

Back into your crying faze
Back into the painful days
But still you your dreams will come true
And most of all you wish he loved you